BRAVE

I read this on The Lymphoma Club Facebook page and LOVE it.

"Why are you brave?  

You are brave because you fight the unknown. 

You are brave because others can't imagine what it would be like to walk a day in your shoes with the burden that you are facing. 

You are brave because you and only you can feel how terrible this cancer makes you feel.  

You are brave because you are being treated by toxic chemicals to fight off this horrible disease.  

You are brave because you keep fighting despite feeling weak, nauseated and exhausted.  

You are brave because you are scared but still get up everyday and keep going...that's why you are brave.  

It is because others don't know what else to say to encourage you to keep fighting!"

~Posted by Linda Koehler of The Lymphoma Club

I’ve totally got this!!

❤,Bubba

Countdown to Pet Scan Results

The Pet Scan went super fantastic.  In fact, I didn't even realize when the nurse was administering the tracer!  She pulled the needle out of my arm and I said "Aww....do my veins suck?  Do you want my other arm?".....to which she replied "NO!  I'm done!".  DUH!  Ok, she was talking a lot and telling me all sorts of stories. :)  Some people just ROCK at their jobs!!!

Anyway, now to get the results!  YAY!  Wednesday, 10:15AM with Dr. Kritz.  Send me positive vibes Warriors!  This is the moment we've all worked so hard to get to!!

I had this with me during my CT Scan, Pet Scan, and now for this next visit!  It gives me strength!

 Here we go!!

I’ve totally got this!!

❤,Bubba

Countdown to Pet Scan

It's less than a week until my Pet Scan!  YAY!  I canNOT wait!  I have a little scanxiety, but I'm more excited than scared.

Tuesday, 2/21/17 @ 10:45A I get the radioactive tracer. 

Then at 11:45A let the scanning begin!

DARKNESS.

WE WANT TOTAL DARKNESS.

Active Cancer lights up, so please pray for darkness.

I’ve totally got this!!❤,Bubba

3/1 Party Is Delayed

I've thought and thought and thought and thought about this, discussed it with my Niece, and have decided to delay (NOT cancel) the party to celebrate the closing of this chapter with my fight against Big Bertha.  I just don't have the energy to enjoy a party right now.  I know I could get a lot of help preparing and pulling it off....but I just don't have the energy for this sort of event.  WAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!  (....imagine me yelling and stomping my feet!)

I'm feeling MUCH better during the day now, which is SUPER FANTASTIC!  I actually have moments when I feel like my old self and it is W-O-N-D-E-R-F-U-L!  But at night I am still struggling.  And if I am able to seize a moment and go hiking or something, I'm then in bed for 3+ hours recovering from it.  AGH!  It's all worth it to get rid of this beast that has invaded my body, but I now have a whole new respect for cancer fatigue.  It is not fun.  I've joined a bunch of NHL facebook and email groups which tell me that this is par for the course.  EVERYBODY goes through what I am going through.  EVERYBODY.  Some recover from it shortly after their treatment, some are still struggling with it years later.  I am doing everything within my power to recover from it as soon as possible.  

Maybe when Spring arrives and is in full bloom, I'll be feeling like myself again and we'll be able to celebrate!  

To my ever faithful Warriors:  You have all helped me keep my head high during this battle and I will be forever grateful!  THANK YOU!  THANK YOU!!  THANK YOU!!!  This is just a little delay, not a cancellation!  We *WILL* party!  

In the meantime, I will be taking it one baby step at a time to get my strength and endurance back!  Grrrrrrrrrr.....

I've totally got this...

❤️,
Bubba