This.

Always forward, never back,

❤,
Bubba
CEO of Save My Ass Technologies, Inc.

CT Scan Results are in!

I got a HUGE surprise on Friday afternoon after my CT Scan...the results are in: the cells continue to DECREASE in size!  WOO HOO!!  Dr. Kritz is VERY pleased with the results!  But not NEARLY as pleased as I am!!!  

I will get the full details next Wednesday at my appointment with Dr. Kritz, but for now I'm celebrating!  Even though the pet scan in March showed no active disease, there was still some residual cells hanging around that had potential...but now that population is decreasing.  HALLELUJAH!  

I'll be honest.  Waiting for this scan to happen was harder than the Pet Scan in March.  For this one, I was having serious flashbacks to my Mom's battle.  She would get a good scan result.....wait a little while....get another scan and the beast would ALWAYS be back!  She'd try another regimen of drugs, radiation, clinical trials, radioimmunotherapy....you name it, she tried it, and NOTHING worked!  It just kept coming back and coming back and coming back....then finally her body said "ENOUGH!" and that was it.  I remember it all very well....

I was SO hopeful that if I tried a bit of a different route, plus the fact that I am a decade younger than my mom was at her diagnosis, that I could keep things stable in my body for a long time.  I've been working really hard at making MAJOR changes, the main thing being my diet.  I don't have it exactly right yet, but I'm close.  And based on the scan results, I now know I am heading in the right direction.  YES!  And I'm also cleaning out other areas of my life, like the products I use to clean my house, do laundry, clean my skin, etc.  I do yoga, work out with my dogs, meditate every night, and have started seeing a couple holistic practitioners that are helping me fine tune ALL parts of my body.  

I still have dark moments.  I still stress out over things that I shouldn't.  But I really think this scan is telling me that I'm headed in the right direction.  :)

I had a very cool chick administer my CT scan.  She let me hold my HOPE rock....but only after she held it for a really long time....looking it over, admiring the color and weight, and shape.  She believes in crystals and even showed me a rose crystal that she keeps close to her heart every day (yes, she pulled it out of her bra!).  She said she's been thru a lot and keeps it close for peace and calming.  She also recognized my pura vida bracelets and said that she wears the same.  She was the most perfect person to be giving me my scan.

Tomorrow I'm going to try something new and I'm REALLY excited!  I'm going to go on a beginners bike ride with a big bunch of dedicated bikers who like to help beginners like me.  It's actually with the Warrior who gave me the HOPE rock :)  How perfect is that?!?

 Always forward, never back,

❤,
Bubba
CEO of Save My Ass Technologies, Inc.

1 year ago - 8/24/16 - chemo #1

WOW!  HOW TIMES FLIES!  It was one year ago on 8/24/16 that I was sitting at the Cancer Center, scared out of my mind, getting my first chemo.  What an UN-FUCKING-BELIEVABLE year it has been!  WOW!  If you are reading this, please hug yourself for a job VERY WELL DONE!  WOW!

My heart got a little bigger when my soulmate sent me a text because she remembered that it was a year ago.  I love you Bailey Monster Wilson!

Then my work folk gave me this...

 

 

WOW!  I wasn't sure what my path was going to be...but I never in my wildest, deepest, brightest dreams imagined that I would be standing where I am, with all the love and support that I've received.  WOW!

WOW!

You know, the perfect word to describe how I'm feeling right now is.... WOW!

Always forward, never back,

❤,
Bubba
CEO of Save My Ass Technologies, Inc.

My Juice Bar Warriors - Tina and Ethan

I was *BEYOND* thrilled when a Juice Bar opened about 2 miles from my house!  It's so convenient to just stop by for a large Super Greens on my way home from work.  But juice is not the only reason I stop at the Juice Bar.  Nope.  I'm addicted to something else there....

The Staff.

OMGosh!  THEY ROCK!  Whenever I stop by, they greet me with the biggest smiles that you could ever imagine!  And they *ALWAYS* ask me how I'm doing.  The other day, I walked in and a lady was already standing at the register about to order.  She stopped mid-sentence and turned around to see who had just come in because of all the FABULOUS, SUPER FANTASTIC greetings and smiles that I was getting!  She looked at me, like, "Who are you?"  I LOVED LOVED LOVED IT!  And I especially loved it because it was my last juice before my CT Scan.  My anxiety was thru the roof when I walked in to the place, but just being in the presence of my Warriors calmed me right down.  

After the lady left, I asked Tina and Ethan if they'd take a selfie with me so I could post this on my blog.  I thought Ethan was going to take the short route to get to me and just jump over the counter!  LOL!  He was BEYOND excited!  Tina was too, but she has a more mellow way of showing her emotions.  But let me tell you, if I don't stop by for a couple of days, Tina is first to jump all over me asking me for the details on where I've been and if I'm ok.

It does not get any better than this...

These two are in my heart forever. 

Always forward, never back,

❤,
Bubba

CEO of Save My Ass Technologies, Inc. 

Scanxiety has begun....

Friday is my next CT Scan.  I want to know what's going on, but it's still an emotional event to prep for.  I've been focusing on my diet and wellness, been keeping myself surrounded by happy, positive people, but it's still tough to prep for these milestones.

I had a very interesting stranger cross my path during a meditation event.  We talked about my battle and she had a very different opinion about how I should be addressing Big Bertha.  When you do yoga and meditation, it's all about peace.  And her idea was that Big Bertha is always going to be with me.  I have an incurable type of Cancer.  That's a fact.  But what I *CAN* do is control how I feel about that.  If I make peace with Big Bertha, let her know that she is welcome and that we are partners, it would make things a lot more positive in my head.  And the more positive I am in my head, the healthier my body becomes.  Hmmmmm...  That makes a lot of sense.  I can tell her that she is welcome to split cells into Cancer if that's what she feels the need to do, but just so long as she keeps it under control and doesn't take over TOO much of my body.  Because if she does that, then we will both suffer the consequences.  However, if she behaves herself, we BOTH win.  Hmmmmm...  It was an interesting conversation and has got me thinking VERY differently.  And it is true that because of her, a lot of VERY GOOD things have happened in my life...

So here's my picture for today....

Always forward, never back,

❤,
Bubba
CEO of Save My Ass Technologies, Inc.